I'm floating on cloud 9 right now after a super awesome first week with the Colgate University team! So far we've eaten lots of great food, gone on some awesome mud runs, had some great team meetings, and really started this year off on a good note. After what was an epic panic attack last Tuesday night before everyone's arrival, I am feeling much more calm and collected at a little over a week later. Yet still, a tiny (very loud) part of me is screaming from within "Is this real life!?!?"
I have done a lot of thinking about what these next few months will entail, and how my life has changed so much so quickly. As I've spoken to my athletes a lot about change these past few days, it has really opened up my eyes to what has always been a difficult concept for me. As I've said many times before, change is frickin' hard. Familiarity breeds confidence, and when everything is new it's hard to stand with your head held high. Even the small things, like not knowing the code to the copier, or which key to use to get into a closet, can send you reeling in a self-doubt spiral of doom.
Patience, patience, patience. I keep reminding myself that it gets better. Each and every day the scary unknown becomes a little bit more of the confident familiar. The big goals I have here aren't going to be accomplished immediately. It will evolve little by little.
Patience. Easier said than done, am I right? If there is one thing I am not it is patient. I was the girl who couldn't even bare to walk to class in college because it took too long, and it was too slow. I had to scooter, run, or bike everywhere because I am a product of the NOW NOW NOW generation. I love challenge and I dream big, but when I set my eyes on something I want my first inclination is to go after it hard and fast. But real change, lasting change, takes a long time, a clear vision, and a whole lot of patience.
I have done a lot of thinking about what these next few months will entail, and how my life has changed so much so quickly. As I've spoken to my athletes a lot about change these past few days, it has really opened up my eyes to what has always been a difficult concept for me. As I've said many times before, change is frickin' hard. Familiarity breeds confidence, and when everything is new it's hard to stand with your head held high. Even the small things, like not knowing the code to the copier, or which key to use to get into a closet, can send you reeling in a self-doubt spiral of doom.
Patience, patience, patience. I keep reminding myself that it gets better. Each and every day the scary unknown becomes a little bit more of the confident familiar. The big goals I have here aren't going to be accomplished immediately. It will evolve little by little.
Patience. Easier said than done, am I right? If there is one thing I am not it is patient. I was the girl who couldn't even bare to walk to class in college because it took too long, and it was too slow. I had to scooter, run, or bike everywhere because I am a product of the NOW NOW NOW generation. I love challenge and I dream big, but when I set my eyes on something I want my first inclination is to go after it hard and fast. But real change, lasting change, takes a long time, a clear vision, and a whole lot of patience.
On a completely different note- I want to thank Julia Hanlon of Running On Om Podcasts for the exciting opportunity to be featured in an interview. Julia found my story through a friend that recommended my blog. How cool is that!? Very cool. Julia herself is a post-collegiate runner and yogi who is about to embark on a pilgrimage to Ethiopia. I’m very grateful and flattered for this opportunity to share my story, and if you want to, please take a listen to the interview HERE.